My LifE sTyLe

hello,Ray(my far away friend)..
I'm sorry that Im not update this blog..I know that maybe sometimes Im not use abook 2 my diary anymore but 2 use this blog..n in other way..u 2 will be in this site..hahahaha..I know Its sound selfish thing from me right..but
sometimes I need u as my imagination friend..I know maybe people might be said that Im insane..or mad,but u see as long as who Im..is myself is okay 4 me.dont u think so?

well...
to be or not to be..is hard 2 said...cuz in beginning I like drawing something 2 make me satisfy of myself in around me..WAIT!!!! If i think again,Im not a type who like drawing..u see...in my 7 years old..I like to be a good friend with a boy than a girl..I like to keep quiet than gossiping with other girl.n when I got pissed of boy I bit them till they hurt..but WHY???? WHY am I be this nerd type?

ohhhhhh...............now I know,2 remind my memories back.Its start with my eldest sister.. she like 2 draw a cartoon..so cute...its just adorable...But,guess what..I actually hate it..its seem like she obsess!! in everyday n every night.she always drawing..Its make me mad..then,Its continue with my second sister..she can draw a cute cartoon 2..maybe Its like a drug...well in other way I 2 attract 2 drawing n take my sister drawing 2 school.. Amazingly,my friend like it..n ask me.."hey,this is ur drawing? ar u draw this cartoon?" n surprisingly, I said "yes,Im" .okay,from now..let me explain it 2 u..Im not someone who likes 2 lie..but I can't...I just..well...like 2 praise from someone else..then,in just one word who change me to not be lie is"can u draw it 4 me?right now?"

after I heard about it Im froze,how can I draw 2 u?that the truth is that my sister drawing..how can I draw 4 u that the truth is I can't drawing..so, the next day..I determined not 2 rely on my sis drawing but 2 draw in my own cartoon...in a year I work hard 2 draw...n then Its just make my habit 2 draw..n after 2 years my habit change 2 like n hobbies..n then my carrier in future is ARTIST..
BUT.....In years after years my desire 2 draw make me more desire 2 draw other cartoon..
I think,I remember..that the reason I like ANIME...is when I in 13 years old...n this 2...started with my own sister...not my eldest..but my second sister.."how could u sis!!! doing this 2 me!!!!!!Its ur fault..." (>_<)
THAT I''LL BE AN OTAKU ..

know WHY????

BECAUSE U BUY ANIME'S DVD...A LOT!! I KNOW U HIDING IT..BUT ITS NOT MY FAULT 2 KNOW THAT WHERE'S UR DVD's HIDING..CUZ,ITS EASY 2 FIND SIS..I THOUGH I SHOULD JUST TRY 2 WATCH,JUST 4 FUN.N ONLY 4 THAT DAY I WATCHING IT.N I NEVER THOUGHT IM ADDICTED 2 IT..N THE NEXT DAY I WATCH ANOTHER ANIME U BUY IT..THE FIRST I WATCH ANIME IS PRINCESS-PRINCESS D....

so...the liking me 2 drawing began 2 addicted!!!cuz I will drawing an anime...n I WHO WANT 2 BE AN ARTIST CHANGE 2 BE A CARTOONIST..N SO WILL MY ADDICTED 2 MANGA ITS STILL STARTS WITH MY SIBLINGS...(T___T)wuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...
n u know what???WHEN THEY ASK AGAIN WHY I ADDICTED SO MUCH WITH THIS OTAKU'S STUFF?ITS MAKE ME..WANT 2 MAD...AGAIN..(THATS CUZ UR THE ONE MAKE ME LIKE THIS!!!!)....but in the end,im not saying it..

I THOUGHT I GLAD THAT..IM NOT 2 FANATIC 2 BUY A FIGURA( ANIME DOLL@TOYS)
THEN..IM NOT OTAKU RIGHT?

HAHAHAHAHAHA..GLAD 2 THINK IT (^ 0 ^)

Times past again,n here Im....I can draw...now..but its no use..cuz im still amateur.well wanna see my drawing?n the truth is Im not satisfying in all my drawing at all..I think It ugly n feels,still have something missing on it.n 4 ur information Im not this stuff have a relationship with my stories"to be n not to be"...thats mean I still consider want 2 be or dont want 2 be a cartoonist.cuz i doesn't have a basic learning drawing n Its not my course in studying..u see..my real course is accounting..2 much different right?
n my family worried a lot about me n my future.. (=__=).....